DESTROY THAT WALL OF SELF-PROTECTION!

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I believe that the biggest end-time battle is actually fought on the soil of SELF. It’s a war between the Holy Three in One (Father, Son, Holy Spirit) and the Unholy Threesome of me, myself and I. I say this, because the LORD led me to read The Satanic Bible while doing research for a book that was to be written in total obedience to Him. What truly amazed me was that it was like a self-help book. The doctrine promoted within The Satanic Bible is self-indulgence, self-satisfaction, self-gratification, and self-rule. Without going into any more detail, the father of modern Satanism proclaimed: “In this new age, the only moral commandment will be, ‘Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.” The Satanic Kingdom can be equated to the Kingdom of Self. What many people don’t realize is that Babylon is focused on SELF as well: “The Babylonians, that ruthless and impetuous people, who sweep across the earth… They are a law to themselves… whose strength is their god” (Habukkuk 1:6,7,11).

Just keep in mind that the Hebrew pictograph (or Word Picture) for the word “pride” tells us that pride is to lift up yourself in your own strength, while the Hebrew Word Picture for “humility” shows us that humility comes when you destroy your wall of self-protection. Please note that SELF is the key ingredient that determines whether one is full of pride or humility.

I remember when our Beloved started showing me my walls of self-protection. He was drawing me closer through this irresistible love. I came closer and closer, until He told me that He couldn’t come any closer. Love told me that my walls of self-protection that I had built to protect myself from the hurt and pain caused by other people, actually kept Him out as well to the degree that I had built the wall. That was news to me, and I desperately wanted to tear down that wall. But how? He first had me confess my sin of self-protection (1 John 1:9); then we (with some help of some godly friends) began to dismantle my wall of self-protection one brick at a time. I desperately prayed, and still pray, for humility and a teachable heart almost every day. I knew that I was guilty of having lifted myself up in my own strength so many times that it was a habit, and I had to turn to Yeshua (i.e., salvation) who literally was my only salvation.

As we tore down my wall of self-protection through me staying humble and teachable, He taught me more and more of His glorious irresistible love. I remember crossing the street one day, when it hit me. I told Him with a forlorn tone, “I don’t even know how to love.” His response: “What a good place to start. Finally… we can begin.”

We worked and worked and worked together in a labor of love. Then one day He came to me. He told me that I had done a good job working to destroy my wall of self-protection by trying to stay open and running to Him for shelter in life’s storm; then He placed a thorn in my heart, and told me that this is what I needed for the wall of self-protection in me to be completely destroyed. That was in 2002.

I had forgotten about the thorn that Love had placed in my heart until January of 2012. I’d prefer to sum up the situation in a few lines, but I must yield to revealing a greater amount of detail because this is what He desires. Let me just preface that we can and should work at destroying our walls of self-protection (as unto the LORD), but our final deliverance comes through a crucifixion process.

The LORD had led me to be in silent servant mode for several years in the congregation that my family attended for 15 years. Prior to being released to go to a Sunday Night Prophetic Prayer Gathering, My Love told me that when I step out in my apostolic-prophetic-teaching anointing again that I was going to get hit. So… I was on high alert. There was an open mic that night, but knowing that something was probably coming I okayed what I was getting from the LORD with the lead pastor before I stepped out. He assured me that it was an open mic led by the Spirit, so I led a prayer for a friend who had just lost his father. I thought: “Okay. That wasn’t so bad.” Then the lead pastor got up and started sharing what God gave him. I got a sinking feeling, because what the LORD gave me in the car ride over there perfectly dovetailed with what he was sharing. I recognized the Holy Spirit’s scarlet cord. So… I sauntered over to a good mature friend, and told her my dilemma. She assured me that if God gave it to me then just obey. So… I swallowed hard. Pulled up my breeches to rein in any fear and released da LOVE.

My piece was very simple and small. I told all present that night that we can all experience God. We can all see, hear, and perceive what the Spirit of the Lord is saying, according to the gifts deposited in each one of us. All we need to do is get in right alignment. By our will, we all can choose to have our bodies submit to our souls, our souls submit to our spirits, and our spirits submit to the Holy Spirit. I was also led to say that our spirit intersects with our soul at our will. That’s why not my will, but Thine be done is such a powerful kingdom concept. So let’s do this, so Thy Kingdom come! They will be done!

I finished my little part, and was relieved that I was still in one piece. I thought maybe I had heard the LORD wrong, until I went to the back of the room. After I hugged a girlfriend, and told her how much Jesus loved her, I stepped back to enter into a prayerful stance when I noticed that there was a shadow to the left of me, so I stepped to my right to avoid it. As I did, I felt my left arm being grabbed real hard and then I was being shook around like a rag doll. After the other pastor shook me, he raged at me and told me that he didn’t want me ministering to anyone. I was so calm inside, as I stared in amazement at a Jezebel Spirit that was manifesting right in front of my eyes. I remember being more concerned with the spiritual than the natural at the time. As I told him, “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I’ve okayed what I was doing with the lead pastor,” he stormed away, as I sunk into the back wall, stunned, to say the least. When both pastors came to get me, I was still checking in with the LORD trying to understand what was going on. When the lead pastor pointed at me and said, “I will have no division in my church. You two work it out.” I thought something like: “Great… I’m being thrown into the lions den.”

I went with the pastor who just abused me into the foyer. The first thing he said was “I am the door you must come through me.” I just stared that man down. Incensed that He would defame My Love’s Word like that and use it as an excuse to abuse someone, especially when there were so many young people in the church. When I didn’t budge and didn’t appear to be afraid, the pastor came to himself for a moment and said, “I mean Jesus is the door.” Then he flipped backed to being controlled by Jezzy and proclaimed, “But you must come through me.”

I had been previously taught by Love that when someone inserts themselves into your life for evil or destruction, you have the right in the Spirit to insert yourself in their life to bring about their redemption. It’s a glorious way to overcome evil with good. So… that is what I was led to do that entire night at church.

Long story, short, I tossed and turned all night afterward. Love keep on telling me to run into Him, and to stay open to Him. It took all my will to do so, because I literally wanted to run inside myself and hide. About 3:00 PM the next afternoon I finally couldn’t take it any longer, and I cried out from the depths of my being: “Lord!!! I can’t take this any longer! Please!!! Help me!” Immediately, a searing bright laser light descended from heaven and burned a layer off me. I just knew that my final layer of self-protection was gone; then I remembered the thorn that Yeshua had placed in my heart. In hindsight, I knew that the thorn eventually attracted a crucifixion experience, but I also felt the reverential fear of the Lord with the message of “woe” to the man through whom it would come. This experience could have actually delivered him too, but I discovered in this experience that by the time an authority figure abuses another person publicly they are pretty far gone. Repentance and redemption were available and I was praying my heart out, but he was too busy trying to keep me in line and keep their own kingdom intact to look at his own heart and actions. Please note: Our message to others means nothing if we don’t love them first and foremost.

There was a time in my life that I needed self-protection in hurtful and abusive situations. It’s actually a way God has designed for all of us to survive when we don’t know what else to do. But now I choose LOVE. I choose humility. I choose to be teachable. I choose my Rock, my Fortress, and my Deliverer, My God in whom I can trust.

“When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things” (1 Corinthians 13:11 NKJV).

All Kingdom Hearts who are growing into the image of His mature Body will grow beyond the darkness of the Kingdom of Self. If one looks in the dictionary, there are over 100 words with the word SELF in front of them. Each one can be thought of as steps up a Babylonian ziggurat (pyramid) to exult SELF. Self-protection is just one of these steps, but… oh… what a stumbling stone.

The first verse I memorized at Big Sky Bible Camp after I was saved at 7-years-old was John 3:16. The second verse was Job 23:10: “But He knows the way that I take; When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.” Keep on pressing onward & upward to the mark of the high calling in Christ Jesus, Dear Heart. You shall come forth as gold!

 

~ Robin Main

Originally published on September 27, 2013 via FB => https://www.facebook.com/SapphireThroneMinistries/photos/pb.436004819805351.-2207520000.1393875233./553717768034055/?type=3&theater

 

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HITTING THE BULL’S EYE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS – PART 8 – FAITHFULNESS TEST

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“He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says.”  Just as the inner ear spirals inward, so is the Bridal Journey of Purification. Just as the spoken word seeks the pure water within, so do Bridal Candidates seek the pure washing of the water of His Word in order to get to the very heart of God. Greater than glorious intimacy is a sacred oneness with the King and His Kingdom:

“That in the dispensation of the fullness of the times He might gather together in ONE all things in Christ, both which are in heaven and which are on earth—in Him” (Eph 1:10 NKJV).

In our last installment of HITTING THE BULL’S EYE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS (see below), we began to explore the second crucifixion step in the Bride’s Baptism of Fire. As we follow Yeshua’s footsteps in our own baptism of fire, we are moving beyond salvation and sanctification to the place of purification where our perfection is to resound with renown at the perfect pitch of His Bride – “The Lord is our righteousness” (Jer 33:16).

Jeremiah 33:17-18 tells us that YHWH will never lack a royal priest that will burn grain offerings before Him. Let’s first focus on the royal priest who presents the grain offering, then on the grain/meal offering itself. On this side of the cross, the Royal Order of Melchizedek acts as a treasurer of the King’s most valuable resources. The top priority on the King’s list is His Ravishing Bride. Esther 2:15 reveals that His Bride is required to do NOTHING but what the King’s Chamberlain appoints. A king’s chamberlain is an attendant on a sovereign in his bedchamber as well as a chief officer in the household of a king who is a guardian of a collection of treasures. Just so you know, the King’s Chamberlain is synonymous with one who maturely operates according to the heavenly Order of Melchizedek here on earth.

Melchizedek is the predecessor of the Bride. We need to understand that we have to first functionally operate in our God-given governmental seat as a kingdom priest before we become a suitable partner – His Bride.

The Bridal Candidate’s Grain Offering Test is an ancient pathway that’s reveals what the kingdom of priests will need to go through at the second stage of their Bridal Baptism of Fire. Numbers 5:11-31 describes the primordial faithfulness test for the Lamb’s wife:

“My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing” (James 1:2-4 NKJV).

Let’s face it. Until we are truly without spot of wrinkle, we are wayward in many ways. This passage in Numbers 5 shows us how Yah (God) deals with infidelity. First and foremost, a husband had to be without sin to bring “the meal-offering of jealousies” on behalf of his wife (Num 5:15). Note that Yeshua brought the meal-offering for His wayward wife at the cross through the offering up of His Body (1 Cor 11:23-24; Eph 5:23-25). His Body will walk in the same manner as He did (1 John 2:6) filling up what is lacking in regard to Christ’s afflictions, for the sake of His Body, which is the church (Col 1:24).

This primordial faithfulness test for a bride was, and still, is focused on inducing her confession and repentance:

  • “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9 KJV).
  • “As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten. Therefore be zealous and repent” (Rev 3:19 NKJV).

Note: That the wife who endured this extreme ordeal to the end would be vindicated. In the Old Testament, the accused wife had to be innocent of infidelity to survive the ordeal, but on this side of the cross, this process shows us how the One who loves us and who desires for us to be ONE with Him will progressively break a beloved one’s soul in order to crucify our sin nature (flesh) until nothing remains, except that which is purely spiritual.

Picture, if you will, yourself as Yeshua’s Bride. You are standing before the LORD with your hair loose, which speaks of revealing the particular frequency of your manifestation of His glory. If a person has mixture (sin) in their life, their frequency will resonate at a lower level than the perfectly pure frequency of their Bridegroom. Recall that “to burn grain offerings” speaks of one’s life being measured according to the plumb line of God’s Word:

“Since you have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit in sincere love of the brethren, love one another fervently with a pure heart, having been born again, not of corruptible seed but incorruptible, through the word of God which lives and abides forever” (1 Peter 1:22-23 NKJV).

Once the Wayward Wife’s hair was let down, the High Priest would then place the grain offering in her outstretched palms, as he held the water of bitterness in an earthenware vessel. The priest would then have her move from place to place in the doorway of the courtyard where devout women served YHWH. The grain offering quickly became a burden that only the most resolute would bear. Afterwards, the priest would write the oaths contained in Numbers 5:19-22 on a parchment scroll. Ordinarily, in Biblical Times, it was forbidden to erase the sacred name, but here Yah commanded that His Name be erased in order to bring peace between man and wife.

Can you hear the shadow of the things to come that are here even now? Bridal candidates hold the grain-offering in her hands – the True Bread of Heaven – Yeshua. They hold onto Him for all that they are worth through the most difficult of circumstances. Remember, this is the place where the fiery eyes of Yeshua Ha Machiach searches  a person’s souls with the goal of the True Bread of Heaven manifesting fully through the supernatural enablement of the seven-fold Spirits of God (Isa 11:1-2). When a Bridal Candidate’s faithfulness is being tested at this level of purification, the eyes of the LORD, which run to and fro throughout the whole earth – your earth and mine – is the substance that comes out of heaven – manna – that humbles and tests us. (Please refer to http://wp.me/p2k1dQ-lZ .) As we press into letting His Word sift us, we are transformed by the renewing of our minds and we prove the Father’s acceptable will through our lives (Rom 12:2).

Another present day expressions of a shadow of things to come is the High Priest of the Order of Melchizedek holds the bitter water in His hands as His Bride moves about His courts. The Temple Courtyard is symbolic of the body. It is here that by “the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service” (Rom 12:1 NKJV).

The waters are called bitter, because purification (like sanctification) is a bittersweet process. One’s soul doesn’t like to die. We fight it, even when we desire it with all our heart. Therefore, these waters of purification are bitter until the tree is thrown in the water (Exo 15: 25). When the Tree of Life is thrown in the water, the waters that our Great High Priest holds become sweet in order to sanctify and cleanse His Bride with the washing of water by the word (Eph 5:25-26). We know that the Tree of Life is synonymous with the Cross in this case, because the erasing of His Sacred Name speaks of: “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life” (John 3:16).

Be encouraged Bridal Hearts! You are ONE who will endure to the end. The wayward wife in the Old Testament was found pure after she went through this arduous, humiliating process. The Messiah’s Bride will do no less. The All-Consuming Fire will lead us by His Spirit and His Word to the place where no carnal flesh will remain; and we will become – ONE – bone of His bone and flesh of His divine flesh.

~ Robin Main

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Previous Posts in the “HITTING THE BULL’S EYE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS” series:

  • HITTING THE BULL’S EYE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS – PART 3 – STEPS FOR THE BRIDE’S BAPTISM OF FIRE – http://wp.me/p2k1dQ-jX
  • HITTING THE BULL’S EYE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS – PART 4 – HOLY PRIESTHOOD OFFERING SPIRITUAL SACRIFICES – http://wp.me/p2k1dQ-ka 
  • HITTING THE BULL’S EYE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS – PART 5 – NEVER CUT OFF THE BODY FROM THE HEAD – http://wp.me/p2k1dQ-kf 

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REFERENCES:: Exo 15:22-26; Num 5:11-31; Esther 2:15; Isa 11:1-2; Jer 33:16-18; Zech 3:9; 4:10; Matt 3:11; John 3:16; Rom 12:1-2; 1 Cor 11:23-24; Eph 1:10; 5:23-27; Col 1:24; 1 John 1:9; 2:6; 1 Peter 1:22-23; James 1:2-4; Rev 3:19; 4:5; 5:6.

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